It amazes me how fear can rule your life. How a certain event can change everything forever. There are approximately 600 named phobias http://www.phobialist.com/. I wanted to just reference a few so I looked them up. I found the list fascinating, so I am including it here. Achluophobia- Fear of darkness could keep you in your home or stranded in a restaurant or a store if you were there too late. And Botanophobia- Fear of plants could make you paralyzed in a grocery store if you wandered to the floral department. Where I am going with this is, I was afraid of the sailboat when I first got her.
It all began when Deb and I decided we needed to take her over to the gas dock and pump out the toilet, or head, as it is called on a boat. We cranked her up, untied her and proceeded to back up. But the boat would not go in forward or stop gping backwards. We were rapidly backing towards other boats, and their motors were sticking out, with sharp prop blades protecting their back ends, and there were the docks between each boat. There were hard things to bang into everywhere and it was coming right at us! Deb sits down and puts her legs out to cushion the impact. I was scared to death she would break her legs. I stood there frightened and paralyzed.
From that moment on, I was scared of the boat as far as driving it. I could sleep in it, sit on it, be around it, but put that key in the ignition and my kneecaps would begin shaking. I could hardly stand thinking about taking her out without getting wound up and sick. I was so sad. Here I was in opposition with myself. Wanting desparately to sail this boat, but I was scared to death to be at the controls. I wanted to sell the boat and give up on this nonsense. Who was I to think that I could afford and handle a sailboat....
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